Sick and Tired and Down

It’s been over a month since my last post and I apologize for not having had any significant activity of late. As a rule, I intended to come out with at least one post every week, but obviously I’ve been falling short of that for the past quarter or so. It’s just that the latter political writings have led me to a period of reflection (and private writing), which made me, among other things, to reevaluate my prioritized stance (political activist or philosopher?), territorial loyalties (leading me to a sustained and sometimes consternating discussion of ethnicities and nations with friends), and discursive style (the tactic in combat, as it were). In the process I detected symptoms of past ingrained diseases and defense-mechanism sicknesses that, frankly, I would like to avoid. Through this period of cogitation, some questions have been answered, yet again some stand ever uncertainly upon volatile temporal foundations. I have also been roughly at the same time traveling the cities of Western Europe, and while I definitely partook of their beauty, my desire and excitement to taste all that they had to offer left me exhausted (which triggered yet another reflection as to whether sometimes I overtax myself with my work ethic, where, as in the trips, I show as much determination and dismissal of health concerns). Add to this disillusionments about both the promises of Western elitist “democracy” (i.e. polyarchy) and the prospects of an authentically liberating Revolutionary act, insights into more injustice where before only the facade of hope was seen (thanks to European views of America), realizations of the blatant ways in which people just don’t care about each other (don’t give a damn, really), and incursions (sometimes getting too close in the form of merciless and downright cheating school loan lenders) of personal financial difficulties, and I am left dispirited. So for the meantime I shall be quietly reading my books as I await the next appropriate topic to write on, the next call to massthink, hopefully by then equipped with the appropriate response, a more effective (at the same time considerate) strategy.